One year ago yesterday, I released my first OFFICIAL track "The Beginning of The End". Looking back, I don't think I've improved too much. Actually, I think I've gotten worse. With the release of The Dying Trance, my creative inspiration died. Sure, I have a good melody here and there, but I just can't produce the same amount of quality content I could last year.

I've swapped genres, kind of. I used to make trance/techno/dubstep music, but now I work with orchestral and metal music. I hate it, because I really love making trance music, but anything I make never sounds good enough, so I never release it. It hasn't gotten any easier with the new genres. My picky mind doesn't think anything I create is satisfactory, so I get upset and give up. I'm stuck in a loop:

I'm unhappy because I can't create music, and I can't create music because I'm unhappy.

I've come to the conclusion that my music isn't good enough to sell, so all of the tracks for "Stubborn Beginnings" and "Bloody Memories" are now free to download. My two upcoming albums, "Melancholy Memories" and "Suffering in Silence" will also be free to download once they come out. Anything beyond that is still up in the air.

When 2014 first rolled around, I thought I was going to make it my best year. I was going to release top notch songs, games, and animations. Instead, I got the opposite. On my youtube channel, I've been releasing videos at a rate I'm not happy with (1 a month, with the exception for may, when I uploaded nothing). On newgrounds, I've released only a handful of songs this year, along with a few shitty games.

People tell me to get away from it all. Take a break, relax, and return when you're ready. Well, I've been doing that. I've been sitting in my recliner, wasting the days away with video games, and I'm still not ready.

Whatever, maybe shit will get better in July. Cheers!

To make up for not submitting anything original for the 2030 jam (I'm just doing music for someone else's game), I'm going to try to make something spectacular for the Power of Four game dev event.

Team name: FOUR SCORE

Programmer: Me

Artist: Bobie11

Musician: Cacola

Sound Effects: Teravex

Tom said we could join multiple teams, so if another group would like me as a programmer (I use construct 2) or as a musician, feel free to ask me!

So I refreshed my pc, which surprisingly left my files intact, thanks to the windows.old folder that it created. Without that, I would have lost all of my games/songs/animations. This doesn't mean I'm back yet. I'm still struggling with that huge brain block, and I'm really not sure when it'll go away. I'm trying as hard as I can, guys. Perhaps after a few days into summer vacation, I'll get all of my creativity back. I usually work best when all alone in my house on a dark rainy day. Until that day, I'll continue to waste my time sitting in my recliner and reading.

P.s. anyone get mario kart 8 yet? I was dissapointed with the final product. Iwata said it would be "the ultimate mario kart", but he was so full of shit. I'm working on a video review, which I'll upload to youtube if I ever get around to finishing it.

This is just a quick post. I've finished uploading the music video for The Last Show. Please enjoy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gIiqRc3m-LU

I'm going offline again for a few days. I've dorked up my computer to the point that I need to refresh it, and it may result in the loss of my files. My songs, my games, and my animations. I'm currently uploading the most essential programs and projects to google drive, but there's no guarantee that I'll have anything at the end of this. If I lose everything, well... I'll probably be offline throughout the summer, working as hard as I can to rebuild what I lost. I heard that a similar thing happened to teravex, so if he can recover from a hard drive wipe, then I probably can too.

Until next time.

I bet you all thought I was working on things behind the scenes or something, but I wasn't. Throughout the past two weeks, I've just been watching anime (The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, Azumanga Dioh, Kore Wa Zombie Desu Ka?, Ouran High School Host Club, and others). The most productive thing that happened was a feeble attempt at learning conversational Japanese, which I spent seven minutes on before taking a "break". I'm trying to get hyped for the Construct 2 game jam, because I want to win a personal license, but I'm really just not feeling it. Music has been an issue too. I can always come up with sweet metal lead riffs during class, but I always forget them when I get home and boot up FL studio. I keep adding really ambitious projects to my bucket list, including:

- Learn Japanese

- Join Machinima

- Start a succesful gaming channel, gaming with a group of friends

- Orchestral remix album of various newgrounds songs (like what bosa's doing)

- Metal remix album of various newgrounds songs

- Metal album remaking songs made in punk o matic

- Create an anime (lol yeah right, like that's happening)

As more ideas pile on, some other ideas fall off. A lot of the games I had planned to release this spring haven't been touched. Puzzle Jumper v4 released in late spring? Yeah right. I haven't even started world 2 yet. The vocaloid album I'm working on? Haven't finished any new songs. Just previews (new one: https://soundcloud.com/larynachos/another-damned-song-preview-read-desc). I might release a lyric video for the second track that I had done months ago, but I really don't know. I have no idea what I'm going to do.

Ahhhhg, I haven't done ANYTHING since I released Captive in Darkness. I guess my will to work was bashed a bit because it's not getting the massive hype I was hoping for. I mean, my friends were wooping it up, and I hope that was sincere (although exaggerated) excitement, but it didn't reach out to any new people. I mean damn, Cacola's remix has the same number of views, and it's been up for a shorter time! I just kinda hoped that things would begin to take off this year. I was gonna go all out and make a legendary album, but it just ended up being just another damned project, no better than the rest.

So hey, I might be in a hiatus until summer. Maybe school is what's getting in the way of my progress. 

Also, song preview: https://soundcloud.com/larynachos/3rd-track/s-FHaX7

So, as you know, I released the first track to my vocaloid album, and Cacola has already made a remix of it!

Check out his remix here: http://www.newgrounds.com/audio/listen/572355

Speaking of remixes, I kinda want to remix something myself. I haven't released a good old trance song in a while, so I want to make something. If you have a song from a game you like, let me know, and I'll see if I can remix it. Alternatively, if there's a song you've created that you'd like to see remixed, I can do that too.

Peace.

Guess what? Tomorrow, I'm going to upload the first track of Suffering in Silence (the vocaloid album I've been working on)! The first track is called "Captive in Darkness", and I went all out with this one. I have a lyric video going up on youtube, and I'll be uploading the song to newgrounds and reverbnation! The rest of the album isn't ready yet. I have one more song done, and I'm working on a few others. This process is slow because school is relentless. I'll release the second track for sure before summer vacation, and the entire album should be complete by september.

AAAAHG IF YOU'RE NOT HYPED THEN YOU DON'T GET TO HANG OUT WITH US COOL KIDS 

Hey everyone! After not having my laptop for a few weeks (my charger cord snapped), I have finally returned! Not too sure what I'm going to start working on. I'm a bit un-organized at the moment, and school isn't making that any easier on me. I'm working with Cacola and TeraVex on a full Techno Trio album, and I still need to work on my vocaloid album, so I'm pretty packed with stuff. Can't wait to get back to work!

Oh man, I'm almost on a roll!

My friend Kyle just finished a remix of my song Winter Dreams. You should check it out and maybe look at his other stuff. Give him the love he deserves and whatnot.

You also might have seen the new game I posted today. I know it's crappy, but I was just using that project as a test for some clay.io API. I was testing out the advertisment plugin, to see if it works. If it does, then I'll put an ad in Puzzle Jumper, hopefully generating enough revenue over time to buy construct 2. 

Speaking of money, I dropped the price of my two albums down to 4.99, so get it while it's cheap!

One last thing...

I just launched my new website! After leaving freewebs due to their restricted free version, I moved to wix and crafted a masterpiece! You can visit it by clicking that link over to the left (the one that says "website"). Check that out, and let me know what you think!

You might be wondering, "Logan, what about that vocaloid album you're working on?". Well, I'm facing quite the creative block in the music department. Mashed out the first two beautiful tracks, and then promptly lost all of the inspiration to create music. I'll try as hard as I can o get back in the music mood, but until then, you are all forced to play my horrible games! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Cheers, guys.