One year ago yesterday, I released my first OFFICIAL track "The Beginning of The End". Looking back, I don't think I've improved too much. Actually, I think I've gotten worse. With the release of The Dying Trance, my creative inspiration died. Sure, I have a good melody here and there, but I just can't produce the same amount of quality content I could last year.

I've swapped genres, kind of. I used to make trance/techno/dubstep music, but now I work with orchestral and metal music. I hate it, because I really love making trance music, but anything I make never sounds good enough, so I never release it. It hasn't gotten any easier with the new genres. My picky mind doesn't think anything I create is satisfactory, so I get upset and give up. I'm stuck in a loop:

I'm unhappy because I can't create music, and I can't create music because I'm unhappy.

I've come to the conclusion that my music isn't good enough to sell, so all of the tracks for "Stubborn Beginnings" and "Bloody Memories" are now free to download. My two upcoming albums, "Melancholy Memories" and "Suffering in Silence" will also be free to download once they come out. Anything beyond that is still up in the air.

When 2014 first rolled around, I thought I was going to make it my best year. I was going to release top notch songs, games, and animations. Instead, I got the opposite. On my youtube channel, I've been releasing videos at a rate I'm not happy with (1 a month, with the exception for may, when I uploaded nothing). On newgrounds, I've released only a handful of songs this year, along with a few shitty games.

People tell me to get away from it all. Take a break, relax, and return when you're ready. Well, I've been doing that. I've been sitting in my recliner, wasting the days away with video games, and I'm still not ready.

Whatever, maybe shit will get better in July. Cheers!